Pinjaman dari Allah

Beberapa hari lepas berbual-bual dengan suami tentang kegilaan orang mengepos macam-macam cerita pasal anak masing-masing di Facebook. Itu cara masing-masing, nak berkongsi dan meluahkan rasa kasih sayang pada anak-anak.

Cuma, aku dan suami rupanya berkongsi perasaan yang sama. Takut untuk bercerita lebih-lebih tentang anak. Tapi kadang-kadang memang tak boleh lari dari menjawab soalan-soalan orang sekeliling yang prihatin pada kami dan anak yang bakal lahir nanti. Lepas panjang lebar meleret-leret kitorang berbual, ada satu perkara yang berkali-kali suami ingatkan kat aku.

"Ingat tau yang... Kita kena sentiasa ingat dan semat dalam hati yang anak ni sebenarnya cuma pinjaman. Kita tak tahu bila Allah nak mula beri pinjaman, dan sampai bila Allah nak pinjamkan anak tu pada kita. Yang kita boleh buat, cuma berdoa. Perkahwinan kita pun sebenarnya cuma pinjaman. Kita tak tahu sampai bila Allah nak pinjamkan diri kita dan pasangan kita (suami dan isteri) ni sesama sendiri. Hargai dan jalankan tanggungjawab pada setiap pinjaman yang kita dapat sebaik mungkin. Pesanan ni memang kita sentiasa kena ingat, supaya bila tiba masanya pinjaman-pinjaman tu ditarik balik, kita masih waras, masih mampu mengawal perasaan kita dan redha dengan ketentuanNya."

Memang buat aku terdiam lama.

Pesanan tu sebenarnya rentetan daripada kisah seorang kawannya yang baru kematian anak berumur 3 bulan. Dia di Denmark, isteri dan anaknya di Mesir. Dia terima berita kematian anaknya di hari yang sepatutnya isteri dan anaknya terbang ke Denmark.




Nota kaki:

Teringat kat pinjaman PTPTN aku yang jumlahnya cecah RM33000 agaknya. Wahhh... Bila taktau baru boleh mula bayar semula. Harap-harap tak dipanggil balik Malaysia secara paksa sebab belum mula buat bayaran balik.    =_=

nak panggil apa?

Abah... Memang dah pasti.

Pasangannya ni...

Mak?

Ummi?

Ibu?

Mama?

Mommy?

Bonda?

Lahirkan 6 orang anak. Setiap seorang panggil lain-lain. Boleh?

Ultrasound

Ni mungkin ultrasound terakhir, mungkin juga kedua terakhir.. Sebabnya, next appoinment for ultrasound was set to be on 20th of December 2012 which is two days before the EDD. Kalau budak comel ni nak keluar lebih awal, so takde la ultrasound lagi kan... Minggu ni minggu ke 37. Berat baby is approximately 2.6 - 2.7 kg, as predicted by the midwife. Hebat tau midwife ni... Minggu lepas, dia estimate berat baby 2.4 kg. Caranya, dia cuma pegang-pegang perut aku je... Selang beberapa hari pastu, pergi ultrasound kat hospital... Bacaan berat baby sama dengan yang midwife anggarkan... Hebat kan...

Yang seronoknya, ultrasound kali ni kami dapat tengok budak comel ni dengan jelas! Alhamdulillah... Dia dah sempurna. Tinggal tunggu masa yang sesuai je untuk dia jumpa kami... :)

Tak sangka dah 9 bulan aku bawa ke sana ke mari makhluk Allah yang membesar dalam rahim aku. Terbayang waktu mak aku mengandungkan aku dulu. Macam ni la agaknya perasaannya. Lepas ni, InsyaAllah aku dapat rasa macam mana pula mak aku melahirkan aku dulu... Semoga Allah permudahkan kelahirannya nanti... Amin.

rasa macam tulis diari pulak

1. Hari ni kandungan aku dah masuk minggu ke 36. Hari rabu ni dah ada temujanji dengan hospital kat sini untuk ultrasound lagi. Minggu depan temujanji dengan midwife. Oh yer... kat sini kalau mengandung, doktor tak berapa nak penting sangat nak dijumpanya. Yang lebih penting, pegi jumpa midwife. Diorang lebih pakar bab-bab mengandung ni...
2. Setakat hari ni kaki dan tangan aku belum menunjukkan tanda-tanda membengkak / menggemuk / mengembang / memerah macam yang selalu orang mengandung kat Malaysia alami bila masuk 8 ke 9 bulan mengandung... Itu yang aku nampak kat kakak ipar aku, adik aku, sepupu aku, kawan-kawan aku sebelum ni la... Hidung aku pun belum mengembang dan memerah lagi... Harap-harap ini normal kat sini.
3. Lagi 3 ke 4 minggu jer aku nak jadi mak dah....
4. Bila jalan-jalan kat sini... Sebenarnya ramai jer lagi orang-orang putih yang pendek... Sebab bila jalan belakang diorang, aku tengok diorang tu tinggi sama jer dengan aku. Tapi ramai jugak yang tinggi melangit, siap kena tunduk bila masuk pintu yang tingginya standard 2100mm. Ko boleh bayangkan? Oh lagi satu... Aku beli diapers saiz newborn, tapi sekali bukak, saiznya macam saiz S kat Malaysia. Kesian kat anak aku nanti....
5. Ingatkan bila mengandung dapatla aku puasa penuh tahun ni... Tapi sebenarnya sama jer... Aku ponteng 6 hari. Rasa macam nak puasa ganti, memandangkan waktu siang sekarang ni tengah sangat singkat.. Subuh 6.10 pagi, Maghrib 3.52 petang... Hoyeah!
6. Kitorang tengah buat painting khat untuk digantung kat dinding rumah kami. Seronok! Lepas ni sure ada lagi painting-painting yang akan terhasil lagi... Biarla nampak tak berseni ke, tak cantik ke... Asalkan benda tu hasil tangan sendiri kan?
7. Rasa sakit hati bila Adobe Photoshop dah expired... Autocad lagi 8 hari nak expired... Sketchup lagi 5 jam nak expired.... Hangin tau tak!!! Tolong la..... Siapa ada crack untuk MAC... Huuuuu.... Aku dah rindu nak buat semua tu.......
8. Aku dah mula rindu kat hujan lebat, panas terik, keluarga, kawan-kawan... Aku dah mula rindu duduk bandar besar macam KL... Hurmmmmm...
9. Checklist:

• Beg nak bawak pegi hospital dah siap pack.
• Bantal dan sarung tilam baby dah siap jahit.
• Baju dan kelengkapan baby semua dah siap basuh.
• Dah cuba masak macam-macam sejak duduk sini... Bihun kungfu, mi hailam, biskut batik, roti, donat, ondeh-ondeh, masak merah, tiga rasa, masak lemak, masak kari, sambal tumis, pancake, lempeng, jemput-jemput, spaghetti, masak halia, masak kicap, tomyam, paprik, goreng berempah, fruit tart, bubur kacang hijau, bubur pulut hitam, puding roti, puteri mandi, kuih sagu... banyak lagi la.... Rasa macam tak percaya jer aku masak semua tu... Terima kasih pada encik google. :)
• Dalam kepala otak sebelum bersalin ni nak cuba buat cheese cake, carrot cake, cookies ala-ala famous amos, karipap, ketayap, rendang...

Sekian. Diari untuk hari ni.... Menyesal baca? Jangan salahkan aku. Tajuk dah jelas dah...

a few updates...

Life in Denmark
We are about to say goodbye to autumn and hello to winter. The time difference between Denmark and Malaysia now has changed to 7 hours (before was 6 hours) since last Sunday (28th October). I heard that the time difference will be changing every 28th March and 28th October, due to daylight saving. Sustainable... Right? 1 to 2 weeks before the change, it was still dark at 8 o'clock in the morning and the sun only rise at around 9 o'clock. Now it rise normally but set at around 4.00 pm, thus we have a long night everyday. We pray Zohor at around 12.00 pm, Asar at 2.00 pm, Maghrib at 4.00 pm, Isyak at 6.00 pm and Subuh at 6.00 am. The temperature now is about 4°C to 11°C in a day while 3°C to -1°C at night.

Aidiladha 2012 in Aalborg
It was ice rainfall during the night of Aidiladha while we were cooking in the kitchen, and snow early next morning just before we went out for praying. We cooked nasi tomato with lemang and rendang for our hari raya. We also managed to pay a visit to one of Malaysian friend who live in Aarhus. It was about two hours of traveling by train from Aalborg. I will try to blog about the celebration here in the next post.

Residence Permit

Alhamdulillah... Allah heard my pray. After 6 months applied, I have been granted with residence permit starting October 19th 2012... I can go for maternity checkup or any medical treatment with no charge. I will be covered with the Danish Health Insurance. I have the right to find job in Denmark... and... I heard that I will also receive allowance as an accompanying spouse and soon a mother from the government as well! It really eases my life here! ^^ Thank you people whom prayed for me too! Well, there are many things that is so different and so systematic living in the first world country, like Denmark if I compared with our life back in Malaysia. I know I shouldn't compare it with Malaysia because we are developing country, but I just feel like wanting to share this with you. You can enjoy most of the benefits as the citizen even though you are a temporary residence. The systems are all linked to each other once you get yourself registered with the municipal. It is including your personal information, healthcare, postal and home address, school, so forth and so on. There is also one thing that makes me eager to experience giving birth in Denmark. Fertility and birth rate here is very low. A friend whom had experienced delivering a baby here told me that there will be a special treatment for a first time mother and father. We will be transferred to a hotel room for 3 days to a week, after deliver. Here, they will teach us on how to breastfeed the baby, changing diaper, cloth, bath the baby, swaddle him, anything about managing a newborn baby... They will also present the baby with diapers and new cloth! Whoaaaa... Tell me which parents will not happy for that huh?

33 weeks pregnant
It is already 33 weeks and my stomach frequently feels hard as rock and tight for seconds or until I care and touch it. It always makes me feel like I got to pee even though I don't have to... Physically, my belly size is not big but my weight add up 10 kg until now! I always feel tired and back pain lately especially after I standing for an hour of cooking. My belly button has started to pop out. Counting weeks until the expected delivery date had made me feel anxious. However it vanish every time I feel him kicking and jolting inside and it is so cool to see my whole tummy just moves and shakes too! Sometimes I also feel his respond by moving inside my womb whenever I reading or listening to verse from Al-Qur'an... Alhamdulillah... Be a good muslim, son.... 

Winter shopping for baby and mom
Last two weeks was a 'shopping-to-death' weeks for us in which we had spent almost 7400Dkk for me and for our little one. Out of that, 6000Dkk is just for him. I bought a winter jacket and 2 pairs of boot for winter. As for the baby, we bought a set of multifunction baby stroller which we think is worth buy. It comes with hard carry cot, car seat, telescope buggy, boot cover, rain cover and changing bag, all can be fixed on the stroller. We bought baby crib and bedding set, diapers, toiletries and other small needs for baby. We also made him 2 pieces of hand-sewed pillow and it saved us about 400Dkk! Great! ^^

Yeahhh.... I think that's all for now. See you again on Aidiladha and Aarhus story soon!

Oh it's already 30 weeks!

Well, I checked with pregnancy test kit when my monthly period was about 2 weeks late. It was such a funny, yet beautiful experience when we knows that there is Nina Jr. or Pilo Jr. or maybe both, inside my womb! :) My husband was the one whom pushing me to buy the tester, he checked and goggled on how to use it, and definitely he was more excited to know the result than me.. As for me, the feelings has gotten mixed up... Happy, nervous, excited, blessed, scared, unprepared...

At first I thought it was a little too soon, but later after my husband said that I should be thankful because Allah gave me a chance to experience a 9 months of pregnant whereas there are women out there whom really wanting to have it yet never had it once, I am thankful for the opportunity, and for being selected.

This is how he looks like during his 11th weeks inside my womb.

At his 19th weeks, we can see his face, hands and legs clearly.

My husband felt nausea and unwell during my first 5 weeks. I started with mild morning sickness later, about in my 3rd month. It was after he left me for Denmark. T_T.

It getting worse during my 5th month, maybe because it was Ramadhan so I had bloating, and vomit every after meal. I missed 6 days and it goes back to normal after 2 weeks of fasting.

I came to Denmark in my 25th weeks and now I am in 30th weeks of pregnant, which means there are only 10 weeks more to go before the date.. Some friend says it will be earlier and some other says later than the 40th, based on their experience. Until today, my weight added up 7 kg from before I was pregnant.

We are expecting to meet with our first hero (InsyaAllah, as what the doctor told us) near Christmas this year. Later after the confirmation of his gender we straight shopping his things and avoiding pinky stuff. Hehe... Even though we already bought some back in Malaysia, yet there are still a lot that we haven't buy for our little prince. Anyway, there are clothes and others he got it from his cousins too! Oh... and from his ummi's and abah's friends as well.. Thanks all! :)

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Hmmm... This is my first time giving birth, and will be having it Denmark, away from family, only with my other half by my side.

Ya Allah... Permudahkanlah urusan kelahiran anak kami dan kehidupan kami di sini. Amin....

hai! hai! hai semua!!!

Assalamualaikum.. Salam sejahtera semua...

Dah lama betul rupanya tak membelog. Kali terakhir Februari 2012. Hehehe... Sebenarnya salah satu sebab ialah aku pernah tukar password blog ni, dan lepas tu bila nak membelog, terlupa password barunya... ni baru la dapat masuk semula..

Mana nak mula yek? Banyak betul cerita baru ni..

Ok, mula-mula sekali aku nak umumkan kat sini yang aku dah pun selamat diijabkabulkan dengan suami tercinta pada 10 Mac 2012 yang lalu.. haaaa baru ingat.. ni la jugak penyebab aku tak sempat nak membelog! sibuk yang amat buat persediaan majlis...

Gambar? Of course la aku letak yang paling cantik kan.. heheh.. Sekeping ni cukupla yer... :)

Yang kedua, aku nak umumkan kat sini bahawasanya sekarang ni aku adalah surirumah sepenuh masa.. Sejak Februari 2012... Dah nak masuk 9 bulan dah rupanya... Tapi kalau boleh tu taknak la jadi surirumah selamanya... Penat jer pulun belajar kan... So, bila dah duduk rumah tu, macam-macam la dalam kepala otak ni aku nak buat kan... Tapi belum sepenuhnya terlaksana la.. Sekarang ni aku tengah mengasah skill memasak.. Encik suami la yang setia jadi tukang rasa dan tukang komen. :)

Yang seronoknya, yang selalu keluar dari mulut suami bila makan, "mmm, sedap yang!", "thank you yang sebab masak..", "baru lah rasa makan kat rumah...".. Kata-kata tu la yang selalu buat aku rasa dihargai dan yang selalu beri aku semangat untuk masak lagi untuk dia..

Gambar? Takde amek gambar la... Ade amek satu ni jer. Fruit tart versi gergasi punya.. Sebabnya, kat umah ni takde loyang yang berkenaan.

Yang ketiga, sukacitanya aku nak sampaikan berita gembira kat sini bahawa sekarang ni ada budak comel sedang tendang-menendang dengan aktifnya dalam rahim aku... ^^.. Pengalaman pertama.. memang seronok tau perasaannya bila kita tengok ade pergerakan kat permukaan perut kita, dan kita juga dapat rasakan dengan jelas yang budak comel ni bergerak-gerak ke kiri, ke kanan, ke atas, ke bawah...berpusing-punsing... Alhamdulillah sekarang ni kandungan aku baru masuk minggu ke 28. Ada lagi 12 minggu untuk dia keluar dan bergaya dengan baju baru yang abah & ummi sediakan untuk dia... ^^ Ramai yang pesan supaya rajin-rajin berbual dengan bayi dalam kandungan.. Ade banyak kali jugak aku praktiskan.. Tapi biasanya, aku macam rasa malu sendiri sebab macam bercakap sorang-sorang jek.. Pastu pulak, macam janggal sangat rasa sebab dok la membahasakan diri ni ummi.. ummi.. Kikikiki... Sorry baby...

Gambar? Ni gambar terbaru aku.. Perut tak berapa nampak besarnya sebab tertutup dengan jaket... Tapi boleh nampak mukaku yang membulat dan tangan yang penuh isi..uhuk..

Seterusnya... hmm, sekarang ni aku dah pun selamat sampai di Denmark.. InsyaAllah akan terus berada di sisi suami di sini sampai dia tamat buat phD. All the best Yang!

Ini gambar aku kat depan Sekolah Senibina di Aalborg Universitet. Universiti tempat suami belajar... 

Cerita tentang pengalaman di sini, post akan datang nanti la baru sambung yer... Gambar-gambar pun insyaAllah akan di upload sekali nanti... Khas untuk tatapan bestest friend, Warda.. :) Bak kata encik suami, "jangan risau, panjang lagi masanya nak pusing-pusing kat sini... Amek ler gambar sampai muntah.." Hehehe...